Did that just happen?

Well Guys, last night when I was getting Asti ready for her insulin, I almost dropped the whole bottle of it when in the corner of my eye I saw flash on my phone; “You have a message from James waiting”. Breathe, did I forget to breathe? Blink, I need to blink or my contacts will dry to my eyes and I will go blind (or so I think that’s how it works anyways). Ok, concentrate – I need to fill a syringe with the correct amount of insulin so I don’t kill my cat, catch her, and then stick her with it – all while not thinking about the message and who Jason might be and if we got married where would it be, probably the beach – you know “normal” thoughts when all you have seen is an alert and nothing else – nothing “crazy” or anything. Done – Asti and Blanca are happily eating and are none the wiser that something is going down – I mean the Real Housewives meet Swamp People big. So I go into the living room, sit on the couch at the edge of the seat, scroll to the app, and open to the Messages page. I see the message at the top of the page; and then sit back on the couch and let out a big defeated sigh. Is this for real? Message: “How are you?” Me: I think I’ll put the beach wedding on hold for now. I guess I thought there would be more.